ANXIETY

Did I do enough? Did I make things worse? Are they ready?

I thought they were, but today they were second guessing themselves. They are exhausted. They have been taking AP tests for two solid weeks, and the very last one, the one this Friday afternoon, is physics. The. Very. Last. One. And today, they didn’t know how to make a graph. They need sleep. I need sleep. God, let them shake this off.

Did you know that last year my students out-scored the entire district? The state? The nation? The effin’ world? They did. And this year, these kids can out-do last year. But today they were so tired that they couldn’t make a graph.

You know that thing I said once, the piece of wisdom that isn’t really wisdom but a harsh reality?

Today’s accomplishments are tomorrow’s expectations.

It is now tomorrow.