I feel fine, and I’m not awake at 3:45 am.

I wake up several times a night and generally go back to sleep within minutes. There is a bit of anxiety that I won’t, but I’ve been lucky. Not tonight, I’m afraid. I saw 2:58 when I tapped my watch. It’s now 3:39. Alarm goes off at 5. Morning comes early.

I haven’t been functioning well the last few weeks, and it’s been getting harder to keep my head above water. A lot is happening, which I feel like I could push through. But I fight my way through each day.

A sticky note appeared on my side mirror on my car one afternoon. The handwriting was that of a little girl telling me that if God is for me then who can be against me. Romans. The note is on my dash now. I saw a video about telling my brain that I am doing great because the brain believes what it’s told, even lies, and the body physically responds accordingly.

I’m sleepy. I will sleep the next hour and a half (resetting my alarm), and I will feel like I had a full night’s sleep. I feel fine.